50, FIFTY

50, what does it mean? 
It means it’s half of century.  So when looking at it that way-it’s kind of scary if a person is turning 50 years old.  Brian turns that big 5-0 this week; which means I soon will follow next year.
Each phases of our life we pass a mile stone:

• age 5-starting school
• at 13-becoming a teenager
• age 16-getting a driver’s license
• age 18-becoming an adult
• age 21-being able to legally drink

When I was about to turn 30 someone told me that you will feel it when you reach that mile stone in your life.  They told me that reaching 30 means you are finally growing up and being more mature and you think more wisely…I’m not sure if that was really true on  my part. 
If growing up and becoming mature at the age of 30, then what happens when you turn 50?  You’re not considered an antique, because you should of become that at 25, right?  Does your hair turn grey at 50 or does it fall out by then?  This isn’t true for Brian, for he was already grey before that, and loosing some of his hair!  Which he blames on me (in a joking way-of course).  Do you consider yourself old enough to finally become grandparents at age 50?  Again, that doesn’t work for us-for we are already grandparents of 4 with the oldest being 11 years old!
So, what does turning 50 really mean to some?  Brian tells me it’s just another day for him.  Some folks want a big bang party to commemorate that day.  Myself, I’m like Brian-it’s just another day in life for me.  We enjoy living a  simple and quiet  lifestyle.
What happens to the next 50 years of our life?  Will  we even live that long?  If  I live to be a 100 years old, I hope I’m still in my right frame of mind to where I can put a few grey hair on our kids, give them a scare or two in their lives, I can be worry free while they finally sit and fret about me! And If not,  it was and is God’s will what will happen.  Now Brian thinks that for sure by the time I reach 60, I will be senile; Well if that’s the case,  then I can torture him first!
But for now allow us to live each day the way we want to live-free as a bird doing what we love to do-traveling!  I don’t know what tomorrow will even bring, let alone, 5 years, 10 years or even 50 years from now.
Tim McGraw (country singer) has a song out called: “Live Like You’re Dying” ;  a good song that he wrote when his dad was diagnosed and died of cancer.  In the song it talks about riding a bull, skydiving and living like no tomorrow.  I don’t think that I’m ready to ride a bull or go skydiving, but I’m learning to laugh more, live freely, and enjoy life as it is.

   
On of the things we love to do is go adventuring and trying new things: like climbing mountains!

Blogging

For the past several weeks, or maybe even longer than that; I have contemplated whether or not to blog and then if I do, why? At one point I even started a Blog and then after starting it, I couldn’t help but wonder why am I doing this? Who the heck is going to read my “stuff”? So I deleted everything that I had started with only a few followers; leaving them out there just hangin’….

I constantly still have all these crazy thoughts running around in my head an no place to go with the thoughts; other than to write them down. They are not bad thoughts, but my thoughts….So back to writing the blogs or not to write. I finally decided what have I got to loose? I do enjoy writing things down so there fore I will continue once again and go back to blogging; whether I have one follower, three followers and hundreds-someday my voice may be heard and if not, at least I got them out of my head…(lol)

After having a mild nervous breakdown a few years back and being placed temporarily in a hospital; one of the things that I had to do while hospitalized is write a daily journal beginning with how I was feeling. Then I had to write letters to the person or persons that I might have been angry with or maybe to someone who has hurt me deeply in the past. the letters never were intended to be mailed out to that particular person, but to relieve my mind of the burden that it was causing on me. So I guess in some ways that is what Blogging will do for me; relieve my mind of heavy burdens. Oh, I also keep a very private and personal journal just as well, and that is just for me.

You have to wonder; what burdens can a person carry that is so heavy on their mind? For me, I like to think about what if… or maybe if I could…But knowing that I never will….or maybe I will….

Now there are so many blog web pages out there, heck, I even started one, and didn’t even know that I did it. Then comes along another one that sounds a little better than the other one, and will even pay you if write lots of blogs. Don’t know if that will ever happen to me-but again, who knows….

Now the next question I have; which blog do you go with? Since I don’t know which one is really the best, I have settled on three…why? who knows…just because they are convenient and out there for me. Now I Wonder if anyone will really read them and if they do, will they learn something from my blogs? Well, if they haven’t learned a thing, it’s their loss and my gain, for it’s out of my head and down in black and white. Maybe I can go back someday and read my blogs and either laugh at it, or think wow, did I really do that?

This is not to say that I lead an exciting life, for I probably don’t to some; but for others that don’t have the opportunity to do things that I am able to do, maybe by reading my blogs will give them some hope or dreams of their own.

My dream is to do what I’m doing right now, traveling with a wonderful partner, seeing different parts of the USA, living one day and one moment at a time and hope that others will be able to do the same.

So to all those other Bloggers out there in our crazy world, look out because here I come!